I feel more and more like a shell of my former self lately. Whenever I think about this, I find myself simply wallowing in self-pity. I feel like some annoying kid who wants others to pity him. I should probably stop. To do this, I have to actually put in effort. I've done that before, those were the times when I was my former self. This seems to be a recurring issue, in which I become really good at everything and then start being bad at things and feeling like I was better before. Then, I figure out whatever I was doing to be that good before and do it. Then I forget again. I remember having had this issue in some form since elementary school. I still haven't found out how to get it to stay at only the good part of the cycle.